The Countdown Begins...

I start work tomorrow. Emersyn will be with me this week...at least that is the plan for now. Until she has a meltdown while I'm facilitating a group & then all bets are off. She starts daycare full time on January 12. The date has been confirmed with the director. I've been storing/freezing breast milk for weeks. I've purchased a box of diapers, wipes & diaper cream for daycare. She's able to use a bottle--and actually might prefer it (go figure). Logistically, all systems are go.
But I'm not ready.
It will be so weird for me to ask someone else how her day was. I could cry thinking that there is a definite possibility that someone else will hear her first laugh & witness her rolling over for the first time. What if she starts liking the daycare people better than me? (Ok, that one I just thought about for the first time--lovely!)
I'm sure once she's been in daycare for a few weeks, these worries will seem ridiculous. I mean, just last week I was convinced she'd have to be fed from an eye dropper because she refused to use a bottle. And then one day, (after we actually warmed the milk in boiling water on the stove) voila--she actually sucked down an entire 4 oz bottle. This is the story of my life--I make a huge deal about something & then it inevitably works out. Patience? Yeah right! Not something I was born with. (Hello? I had my child induced 2 days before her due date!)
I'll try to add a post sometime next week to let folks know how work plus Emersyn is going. I just have to remember to try to put Emersyn & my clients as equal priorities (at least while I'm at work). My goals for the week? Get to know the clients that are at the house right now. Get back in the therapy mode. Establish & reinforce boundaries. Get organized & comfortable working again.
Try not to think about the following week, when someone else will be with Emersyn...